Hi guys and welcome to another weekly post.
This week I wanted to share something a little different with you.
As you know I normally do a post on Thursdays and a post on Sunday’s but this week I wanted to share a little Insite to how my week can be on not such a good week, as I’m sure you can relate if your living with some kind of disability or illness.
I was going to do a post about something that can be used to help people like I normally do on a Thursday, but because I haven’t had a brilliant week I haven’t had time to do any research on anything and it wasn’t something I wanted to rush and give you guys the wrong information so this is why I decided to share a little with you about me.
So sometimes I struggle with pain to a point I can’t leave the house, sometimes I can’t even leave my bed but this week it was just the amount of pain I was in and how it was also affecting my mental health. I am also on new medication which isn’t fully levelled out yet, so I must take that into consideration as well.
So, I struggle everyday and doubt myself daily am I doing the right thing? should I carry on doing this? and Monday I was having a really bad day and didn’t care about anything, I was feeling very low and didn’t feel I was doing a good job on the blog, but then I try and think why I started my blog which was not only to help others but to help myself as well. The more I thought about it the more I realised that I do love doing this blog and the fact that it is helping others and myself. I do enjoy going to different locations more so when I have struggled with the build up to the day of the visit and I have managed to push through the panic and nerves that I get and I feel really happy that I manged to complete the day, without letting my mental health and illness take control.
This is what I must focus on when having bad days and panic attacks, why I started this in the first place.
It’s not easy either having to accept that you have an illness and that your not able to do a lot of things that you used to be able to do and how controlling it is but I’m trying to fight every day to take a little at a time of the control back and not give up.
I want to also say a big thank you too everyone that is supporting me on here and on all social media platforms as well as my family and friends, as I wouldn’t be able to do this with out you.
After Monday I felt a little better and then Wednesday I got to go to Chichester Cathedral, which you will be able to read about on Sunday. I was not so low and this was a better day and I felt really postive after going to Chichester Cathedral, which picked me back up, before going though I was worrying about the visit in case of it being busy or me having a panic attack but I was lucky that day I didn’t have one and it felt good. Instead I really enjoyed my visit and felt happy that I went and postive too that I had faced my fear and took a little control back.
I think we all doubt ourselves sometimes some more than others but with the right support we can get through it and do the things that we never thought we could do and I think sometimes we just need to remember this! Even when things can seem never ending.
I hope you enjoyed reading my post! Thank you for reading, see you Sunday with the Chichester Cathedral post. Take care my lovely readers.